changes create more oppurtunities.
drew barrymore once said there is a difference between being dry and sober.. of cos wen she said it , she was reffering to drugs n its lifestyle in hollywood.
- dry: when ur still having the same enviroment without the chemical (the drugs and alcohols).
-sober: when u change ur enviroment.( no drugs n alcohols n not the same lifestyle).
so you see, iv been dry quite some times.lets make things clear first, my situation is different den drew's of cos.i definitely dont live dat kind of lifestyle ( i hope i never have too).its just dat iv been doing the same thing, hanging almost wit da same pep most of the time ( not dat i dont like it ) i do.i really do. but its just dat at times im really happy- ders a part of me not feeling it( the happiness i mean). its just sad.n like.i always wonder what if..
i guess at one point, i just wanted to experience different things.not the same old routine.it bores me at that point of my life.i wanna do exraordinary things. things iv always dreamt of doing. i knoe ur probably say..den go n do it.owh how i wish it was dat easy.
so many things to think of like the future and so many people involves like the family.so how can i just leave everything and go?
honestly, if u ask me..personally i would just do it. bcos i think the satisfaction feeling u get of just doing it is as great as being able to solve a very hard equation like in mechanics or like having to solve those math problems in calculus class. life satisfaction is a feeling i cheerish most n adore as much as how rachael bloomwood from confession of a shopaholic feels getting into a shop or buying something. SATISFACTION is by far very satisfying.it comforts the heart, heal deep cut wounds and definitely brighthens' one's day.owh how i like the feeling of it.
for me to achieve such.. i feel that i should change from being the dry girl i am to a sober girl iv always wanted to be. ( ok.. i do know that my writting is really bad n some sentence just dont make sense but plz just play along ok).anyway, yes being sober will undoubtly change my life, my perspective of life and people. * travelling broaden one's mind* - totally true!
that is why im looking forward of leaving malaysia ( but the people iv known ere is by far cheerished everyday in my heart- iloveyou.) however the only standing in my way know or more to stop me from going is myself. hhhmmm..
now im just not making sense.owh i never do make sense. anyway. im just saying im gonna work things up hopefully before summer ends and do great things in my life and going to states or anywhere in the world is by far on top of my list.
well, i should stop now.im writting crap.but farzan once told me..let the ideas flow cos nothing is crap. ngee. i like dat phrase a lot. i like most of his msgs anyway. he was my mr.positive. he always knew how to make me smile. i liked texting him at nite. how i miss those nites. *sigh*
didnt i tell you. crapping again now.ok den, will update soon bitches. take care. love from yours truly.
