who would have tot soon was sooner than soon. ??

anyhow,

so i saw you.best part no old feelings.no, best part not only that but now i dont seem to have any towards you.even better. worst part- NON!

( god I'm smiling so much that it hurts my face)

haha.


n my late night texter. i am really happy that things between us are final good.
imy ok.

thank you.

good night. -literally.

kudos to amir muhd for burning the political interest in me.

although i am a bit disapointed that his not much of a talker. sigh. well everyone hav a choice to speak or not. ill get his books n understand him better but i shall finish the owh so many books i have now first.


this post is long overdue.
but i finally managed to post it.
sorry for the delay.

:)

no i dont think its ok for your BOYFRIEND to be the first in line where your GIRLFRIENDS come second. - personally, its fucking bullshit.


when you first like the guy who was there to listen you jabbling about him? - girlfriends.

every time he hurts you who do you go to for comfort? - girlfriends.

when things dont work out with the two of you who cheer you up? - girlfriends.

so tell me as one of your girlfriends, is such treatment fair for we have always been there for you. and never once you make the time for us.

and the fact when u promise to come see us and call us are just nothing but lies makes it even worst.

and yes, cancelling a plan at the last minute is just absurd especially when the reason is my boyfriend cancel on me so now im moodless.so you cancel on your girlfriends. wtf? fuck you for even thinking about it.

sometimes GIRLS are just so cheap when it comes to boy. honestly its so embarassing for me to even say so. u stupid bitches.wheres your pride?

dont call people whore for the mirror is calling you one. FUCK YOU.


maybe this could be the reason why i never wanted a boyfriend.-idiot

sorry for the delay.





my fingers were just to lazy to spell out the words.





:)

but this is why 20th mei 2009 is a good day.






its been so long iv hang with the both of you.

i miss you guys so much.

"my worries are all gone when my life is full of our laughters and memories."

i love you siti norhafidah and zuraifazni. i love u much.


n knowing things between me and ridwan is finally ok makes it a WHOLE lot nicer. :)

20th mei 2009. will update soon.

i miss the good old days. i miss my friends. :(

i wanna go to the states or uk now.
take me now.

lets create more memories for me to miss.

YA ALLAH, please?

fuck fuck fuck fuck. my heart is swearing all da way.

why? well thats for me to know and for you to find out.

fuck off.fuck you!

the mind wonders of every little details.

hunting and gathering is awesome.

romantic. how i wish everyone can just say the words and not be so secretive about their true feeling.

how i wish i was that person.

but i guess life is not a movie isnt it.

sigh.


( i wanna write more but i cant)

from far ill think of u.

from far ill care for u.

from far ill miss you.


to forgive is easy, to forget is a never ending process.


but that will not stop me from living my life.

i am glad iv met you but now the future awaits.

so long my past ( fill in the blank)..

my heart will always remember you.

it hurts but at times i smile for it was once great.



( james morrison- wonderful world)

life is tough. yes.

but that does not give you a reason to be such a bitch or an A-hole.

sometimes its just confusing.

how can you hurt those are kind to you?

and

how can you comfort those who hurt you?


at times,my reactions are cause of actions without thinking.

but im only human.

im not perfect so are you.

but if ur willing to accept my flaws, im happy to do the same as well.

SORRY to those iv hurt directly or indirectly.

from the bottom of my heart, i apologize.

we cool? :)

the 100 words project was very interesting and klpac is so pretty.






very soon.



i am happy today.



thank you qamelia.



i hope this friendship we have continues to bloom each day untill our last breathe.



i love u dearly, qamelia khalid.



:)

its funny how wrong u can be about people.


despite the good times and the sweet words.



i guess its all crap.



as fake as a silicon boobs can be.


and i was so stupid and blind to fall for such charm.


my heart is screaming the F word but my mind knows its not worth it.

Today I am supposed to smile and be happy.


And today also I am not going to fake it.

No, I don’t feel lively.

thank you for the kind thoughts of me.


Very much appreciated.


Take care.

I am no longer holding on to the past for I am now looking forward because I know the BEST is yet to come.



So keep me strong my lord, for you are the only one I am counting on.



I LOVE YOU my precious love.