yes life can be very much complicated but some things are not that hard to understand.

i honestly have a strong feeling of disliking people who are not true about themself.

go fucking discover yourself dont go fucking copy others.

u fucking wannabe yet never be.

if only imposting was a sin.

ull be burning in hell right now.

i guess in ur case it is a sin cos lying is a sin.

yes?

i guess GOD did love you more.

my soul is so empty for i thought i would have that one chance to work with you.

but, i am glad i meet u before.

may you rest in peace.

AL-FATIHAH.

you were an idol.

thank you.

i have a problem.

i hate the fact i have so much going on up in my head

but so little with other parts of my body.

STOP being such a lazy bitch.

fuck i need rehab.

yoga sounds nice too.

only im financially screwed.

sigh.

i hate that money is not my loyal companion.

u make me sad money.

u really do.

( frown).

i was told of a news i never tot will be so soon.

for i am praying for the best right now.

GOD, help. please.

if HE loves you more..

than i must say,

u r a great gift from ALLAH.

u open up hearts n minds of many souls.

and im lucky to have known you.


u r indeed a great gift.

(prayers to you)

hey ho. i know not many people actually read my blog. owh well cant complain i am not famous afterall. heh.

anyway,

just to let you bloggers know.. i have my own tumblr as well..

do check it out..

less words. more pictures. ( dats what im going for)

wish me success and do check it out.

tenaciousmademoiselle.tumblr.com

i have a secret.

u make me sound like im a WHORE.

u make my self-esteem so LOW.

let me tell you something...

i live my life for me self n not for u.

im not ere to please u.

u got others to do dat for u.

so...

i ll do what i want ill wear what i want ill say what i want n ill live the way i want.

not my fault if you have a problem with that..

wasnt my idea for you to bring me.

im giving u a heads up..

cos i may be the first but hell no im not last.

if u think now is insane

wait till later.

by then ill probably go i told u so.

i RESPECTed u.

u accuse me of abusing it.

i guess the distance we had made us closer.

cos the lesser u know about me

the less u will hate me

perhaps one day u will ACCEPT me

just the way i ACCEPTed you

its a bond all tangle up

u cant untie it.

so;

i made my choice.

its all up to u.

iv grown more than u know.

try accepting that as a fact.

i love you but ur killing me.

so let me go

i will be fine.

better than now.

for sure.

i have always been fascinated with the so called reality tv shows. im sure its not that REALITY yet i still tune in everyday to find out whats up.
its like a visual bible and im that religious. heh.

anyhow, since im done with the city season 1, i was craving for more so called dramas.
its like god was sending me a sign or whatnot when the advert of daddy's girls appeared during on of the commercial breaks on mtv.
so me being me... when n google it up.. n after 3 hours +/- im done with it.
( there was only 6 episode. :/ )

its waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy different from the city for sure.
but it is also not similar to the hills although it is in LA n the apartment the girls were staying in do look EXACTLY like Lauren's apartment.
only they coloured the walls diff. perhaps running out of budget? only they know.

well i am fascinated of what is going tru people's life.

it's like knowing people without meeting.

in a nutshell, in my very own opinion.. reality tv shows are like visual pen pals. sort of.
only that it works one way.

maybe one day i get to finally meet some of them once im in states?

owh ... i wanna go to states badly. :S

fly me there now please and thank you.

and i am so eager about the city. whitney port is so awesome and gorgeous.



and i also found a best friend i never had. her blog is like my other half.



now, when i fly off to the states we all shud have dinner ya loves?



:)





states i wanna be there now.

its been so long that i look upon this world on this side. now im turning so i can see the other side.














everytime,



i forget you remind me.



thank you ALMIGHTY.



i love you.



:)

i rather have swine flu than fighting with my love ones.

n i am having my period.

that's a good sign.

because I'm probably so damn over uncontrollably angry for i am PMS -ing.

lets just blame the blood flow ok?

:)