Gorgeous Mess.

C'est Qill.

BONJOUR.

i am a freak. a delicate one.

nice to meet u.

Saturday, September 19, 2009,1:35 PM

captivated by the four fascinatingly combined alphabet.

it is that one expression of that one word, one feeling and one thought that may not be describe as profound of what it is meant, felt and known of.

to illustrate it is hardly a meaningful attempt but always a grateful discovery.

nor one may not stop of portraying yet a very delicate beautiful craze.

the mysterious enigma shall reveal only once devotion rout the tolerance of life.

in keeping faith for a silent reply.

1:03 PM

in relating you and i of then now and later.

to celebrate the first is nothing compare to the last.

to know the fondly feeling of then, now and perhaps later can never be compared.

as it is of what was, is and will forever be.

as smiling never fades like the wound never heals.

bcos its the simplest little things in life that makes it all so much meaningful.

as word may not say it all

as action cant speak of it all

the heart never stop wonders of what was is and will be.

10:56 AM

can, may, nor will never happen. hopes~

i dont wanna grow old, bitter and alone.

but if i had to choose.

i rather be alone but NEVER bitter.

its better to be the old lady with 27 cats than the old grumpy lady.

scary yes?

Friday, September 18, 2009,10:36 PM

to you that i no longer speak of yet fondly think of.

its been so long since our last conversation. it was at this time of the year that my heart wanted you more than just ...

but now, am not asking more but just a simple hello bcos what we had was amazing and wonderful.

yet again the ego of you and i will never fade away will never give in for it was not wat we wer both long thought or believe.

but incase you do feel the way i do.. i miss you too.

you will be that friend of mine who thought me a lesson of life that i cherrish much.

and to tell you that may freak you out for you may think i want more and i am not what you want of.

but like i said that is the past as the present is just a silence of thoughts and the future is a hope of a greeting.

take care dear one.

you will always be remembered.

and that is a promise.

if only the three words are easy said then felt.

10:03 PM

and at times action speaks louder than words can mean.

in any relationship one may have.

be it

girlfriend-boyfriend.

husband and wife.

friends.

best friends.

or even

the simplest thing

as studying

eating

bathing

or whatnot.

a conclusion made,

IN EVERY RELATIONSHIP IT IS THE EFFORT THAT MATTERS.

so ask yourself what have i done to make this work?

the answer to the question is the answer of your being.

9:31 PM

thoughts may wonder yet answers never reveal.

of finding and losing.

of confusing and knowing.

of living and dying.

of answering and questioning.

of staying and going.

of giving and receiving.

of loving and hurting.

of believing and doubting.

life will never give you an accurate answer.

never precise never sure never right yet never wrong.

seeking for the truth is knowing all the lies.

yet every lie is a truth and every truth is a lie.

to know may not be to believe.

to believe may not be to know.

as a question intrigue,

is life even real?

8:42 PM

but you will never kill my spirit away.

am only giving in bcos my future is in your hand.

this is the ONE THING i will NEVER EVER give up on.

come what may .. i will conquer all. i will fight it all. i will survive.

the future is my life, my hope, my dream.

i believe bcos i know at the end its all worth it.

so go ahead,

hurt me,curse me, fuck me.

i will not let go.

bcos I AM STRONGER than u knoe of me.

my future awaits, my life , my dream.

it is my destiny and time is my witness.

3:54 PM

broken pieces of a fragile soul.

you took advantage of my fears. i fucking despise you.

what kind of person are you.

and justice is suppose to serve to those who deserve but reality is justice is never justified.

and even in fantasies nightmare can appear.

Thursday, September 3, 2009,9:29 PM

the positive vibe keeps our hope held up higher.

had a very bad day.

will tomorrow be the same?

lets pray and hope it wont b the same.

:)

Tuesday, September 1, 2009,9:01 PM

Bcos Rarely i feel Attracted.

i got myself 3 new bra and i am loving it very much! soooooo comfortable. so awesome i wanna wear it with nothing. heh. ;p

and now am just bra crazy. i cant stop thinking of getting more!

i knoe. weird. but me like!

;p

well, gonna go check the notes for tomorrow's class.

later.