Gorgeous Mess.

C'est Qill.

BONJOUR.

i am a freak. a delicate one.

nice to meet u.

Sunday, November 29, 2009,4:10 PM

Unbolting is rigid. An anxiety attempt.

it doesnt hurt to have faith together.

its helpful when the enviroment makes a change too.

no?

2:49 AM

why choose that side when the other one is so much better?

it doesnt hurt to have a little faith.

12:18 AM

sanity under a super duper insane circumstances.

change.

am fond of the word now.

everything new.

would be super awesomely great.

indeed.

Saturday, November 28, 2009,10:25 PM

forward i seek. future is everything.

i am not ready to make nice.

but i am indeed ready to get the hell out of here.

away.

far away.

6:43 PM

my beliefs changed.

it would be nice if both my atuk and wah is still alive.

at least i can run to their arms.

i miss the good old time.

i miss my grannie n atuk very much.

i miss being at ur place.

fuck the big guy.

ur useless.

u take away the thing that matter most

and hurt people who are already wrecked.

u create things just to see us fail.

u dont even know how it feels like being human.

so dont go call urself almighty.

u have no idea how much pain this world u created can cause.

selfish is the only thing to describe you.

2:47 PM

useless attempt.

sometimes i wonder why do i even bother.

so fucked up.

not like any of them will ACTUALLY be there.

FUCKERs i tell you.

Friday, November 27, 2009,11:20 PM

suicide might just be the only answer.

i DONT BELIEVE IN RELIGION.

i DONT BELIEVE IN GOD.

KILL KILL KILL.

9:18 PM

fuck boredom. fuck so called home. fuck life.

i need to be around lively people.

i need to live a productive life.

fuck am bored and lifeless.

FUCKKKKKK!

7:53 PM

there is no such thing called friendship.

the best way to overcome disappointment is by sleeping.

go to dreamland. its a better life there.

* smiling insincerely *

good night.

7:39 PM

despite the words and actions. am still a good person. i know i am.

stop wasting my credit and energy if your answer will be a no.

u stupid u. make life so miserable i tell u.

always get to the point.

there is no point to start a fight.

my ego is far worst den yours.

u wont win.

trust me.

6:04 PM

a lovely thought to conquer a dull reality.

sitting in a beautifully decorated little cafe sipping hot chocolate while eating a bowl of fresh salads plus a glass of delicious belgian tiramisu for dessert while listening to the duke spirit and a great book in hand.

the thought of PERFECTION.

loves.

Thursday, November 26, 2009,6:55 PM

as random you may be i still seek the solidity.

U wanna be a freak. Go ahead. Do it without me.

Making u look like a fool just makes me uber cool.

LOVES.

6:40 PM

lacking of cash is never an excuse.

Im no season late I only enjoy the wait for it’s a better sale.

lets go shopping?

6:25 PM

november 26,2009 i dont really like you.

am having finals soon. a week from now. oh god. am screwed.

and due to the oh so freaking bad sore eyes am having i did not go to class which iv been skipping ALOT. not good. and i only have two more class to cover up my attendance and gain marks for participating in discussions. NOT GOOD AT ALL. am dead.

also due to the what seem a never ending sore eyes, i wont be attending tonite's thanksgiving dinner in college. fuck. was so looking forward. turkey. yummmmm.

am also in the mood of dressing up and just go out and be around.

but THESE RED EYES OF MINE ARE KILLING ME!

go away you no good infection.

ur ruining my life.

and the fact my head and body is aching real bad is not helping at all.

sigh.

and owh yes. I MISS ME CUZZIE SHUE!

get me tickets to notthigham, anyone?

and yes tomorrow is aidiladha. not that i care. but yea. happy eid.

5:36 PM

i dont tweet but i stalk in my on way.

strangers dont seem so foreign when a secret relation is form where silent dreams and thoughts are seized.

so close yet still unreachable.

if only opening up was so secured.

the world will be an epic-er world with the collabration of them,you and i.

if and only if.

*frown*

discovering awesome blogs is my special kind of heroine.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009,3:02 AM

to ease your burden.

if you look closer

and not blame

and let the ego down

you will get your answer.

but you choose to ignore.

you choose to shut.

am only playing your game.

i need your money and nothing more.

am not expecting or hoping anything but finance.

but soon

that will go too.

then free is given a meaning.

till then

i rather commit suicide than call you ...

2:55 AM

a box of knife is my present to you.

disgusted by oneself.

depression gone wild.

at the urge of suicide.

help needed.

no sign of any hand reaching out.

the world spinning too slow.

the mind is going too fast.

secs till the end.

soothing in seconds.

gasping for hope.

no light.

yet still looking.

soon......

gone.

real soon.

Friday, November 20, 2009,4:48 PM

completing my 1001 look with you.

i want. now.

Thursday, November 19, 2009,9:26 PM

disliking human.

funny how your comfort for others never comforts you.

at the end of the day.

everybody walks away.

and thats the reality of life.

its far beyond real.

hyper real?

Wednesday, November 18, 2009,2:09 PM

a silent imagination of adoration conversation.

sorrow of my heart

tears of devastation

what a gloomy day.

one book. miles away. two great poet.

in time i will wait. in time i shall say. in time i will obey.

of disliking humans. i discover two great soul. dead n alive. u define me life.

HEARTS.

n the clock ticks till december comes.

till then i shall wait.

for an interception of two amazing souls.