Gorgeous Mess.

C'est Qill.

BONJOUR.

i am a freak. a delicate one.

nice to meet u.

Saturday, March 27, 2010,10:27 AM

faith isnt really my thing.

i seek you not me.

i seek us not you.

but everything seems to be hiding.

1:03 AM

one is the only number i know.

i dont/ wont /cant do us.

12:53 AM

the answer to why the future is not a place of you and i, together.

history wont let us be.

for the present was never made of you and me.

Friday, March 26, 2010,2:15 AM

resistance.

i dont care if you make me your last.

it doesnt matter.

because you will never forget your first.

Thursday, March 25, 2010,12:05 PM

i want to stand out in the crowd.

if i had to have a family.

i want to live The Brady Bunch life.

please and thank you.

4:56 AM

to choose is a disgrace to the power of love.

i dont wanna be your first option.

i wanna be your only option.

because then am your everything.

4:43 AM

i have a disease. and its called philophobia.

the two of us wont make one.

for you and i can never make us.

but to every wont and never there is always 0.01% of a possibility to make it happen.

all you need is a strong reason to believe in it.

and it takes more than eight letters to make it right.

Saturday, March 20, 2010,12:34 PM

hesitating the possibility.

you already know the answer.

but

sometimes things are a little bit more twisted.

yet

the answer remains real.

Sunday, March 14, 2010,4:46 AM

hello earthlings.

oh humankind.. so vulnerable so lost so beautiful.

oh humankind.. so deep so craze so elegant.

oh humankind.

too perplexed too simple.

oh oh humankind.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010,2:53 AM

warhol i have your back.

somethings are just best imagined.

2:42 AM

your very own personal therapist.

bcos am

devoted to put a smile on your face.

and

comfort your soul with warmness.

and

i do it all with love.

and

that's just how i am.

2:34 AM

to whom i choose to not know.

i love myself more than i can love you.

its just fact of life.

deal with it.

2:19 AM

an oxymoron.

character-ly the same.

conclusively undefined.

subjectively related.

objectively unanswerable.

Monday, March 8, 2010,10:01 PM

bcos to a certain extend i am a heartless bitch.

i will break your heart.

period.

9:55 PM

tagging oneself in redefining the greater self.

to twist things while being defensively selfish with ideas that creat a mind of its own is spelled with the combination letters of

A NAME that is easily forgotten but A FACE that is always remembered.

Saturday, March 6, 2010,4:25 PM

the tool of not wanting is a heartless heart.

now, the things that seem so absurd makes more sense.

but wanting it makes it even more absurd than any sense.

why is it so hard to stay true to words said or thoughts made.

4:23 PM

if only life can be such a beautiful lie.

movies/tv shows are the best.

you always know the ending.

you always know who to trust.

and it is the best lie anyone can live in.

4:11 PM

defensive is my middle name.

standing vulnerably tall makes me sick for am worth more than the height of egoism.

4:03 PM

deeper thinking wont bring any meaning.

when am out in the world. i feel so different from the rest.

normal-er than the society.

why is it when am all alone. i feel so similiar to the rest.

foreigner-er than the society.

3:34 PM

death cant be that bad right?

i have a feeling that am gonna die young.

sigh.

Thursday, March 4, 2010,3:48 PM

i wish you would answer this little prayer of mine.

i think its my time to shine now.

or atleast be gone.

good god,

i cant make the choice.

its all in your hands.

am doing everything i can to make it there.

but i see no helping hand.

so please, reach out for me.

your the only one i have now.

PLEASE.