no need for a profound establishment,

but enough to satisfy time.

disappeared in the comfort of others,

despise every second of it.

I do only ME.

hello old tangy feelings,

why do you appear again?

i donthavetimeforthisdreadfulwhimsically feel.

occupy my time, world. feel my mind, thoughts.

have I not been more careless,

now would not be laughing at me

like an idiot starring blankly.

Dear god, help me. Make it okay.

PLEASE?

if every word I say or think is a word of a prayer,

oh dear god, please listen to this for this is the most vital request one shall ask for.

I know I have not been a good servant nor a good daughter,

but please dear god, know that my little black dotted heart is a heart full of remorse and love for you and the family.

I only ask for one thing, please dear god, ease the pain and burden of my father for he is a man that never dies of trying and for now I am in no account of repaying his gracious love.

I seek you my lord, for you are capable to give of more than one can ask for.

Please oh please, ease the burden he has.

I beg of you.

to sit and ponder the hows and the whys,

logic becomes a reason emotions are put aside.

but a strong feeling kills every reasoning made.

how can one survive such a delicate cruel life?

is it when you lose is the end?

because surely winning never seem to last long.

at least not long enough to say the end is a sweeter tale.

it is when you fight with a lie, you will always end up losing.

sorry is a bit too late, hoping it turns better.

but the result in mind is nothing but the worst.