You lie to stay in your own comfort zone 

but my body will always tell the truth 

and you violated and assaulted 

my space and right.

Go and convince yourself what a fucking kind soul you are 

but underneath it all you are a demon just like your father.

What a fucking waste of time being a friend to you.

Now I have learned how gullible I can be and what manipulation is.

You are a horrible human being. Your laugh your smile are all an air of desperation

Because you are too scared to be with yourself, so you compensate by humiliating others. 

What a disgusting human being you are.

FUCK YOU!

I am Proud and Happy 

That I finally have me again.

What a waste of two years of my life catering to someone so irrelevant to the world.

People like you should be so very ashamed of themselves.

PATHETIC is not enough of a word to describe you. 

To keep silence in a time where your voice matter

is the most COWARD thing to do.

Racism is not something to be silence about.

And for you to not say anything,

What a waste of life and purpose to be alive.

To pretend and put a mask on and say how liberal and left you are.

It is a disgrace to humankind that your PATHETIC-ness of not being able to
voice out when time matter most.

If I were you, I would be very ashamed to be alive.

Disgusting Creature. What a Waste of Life.

 A friend once told me about how Brexit will affect us as immigraant,

I listened so careful and I understood what was said

I knew the emptiness, sadness and pain that it will cause
us IMMIGRANTS

but home is where your heart is and no matter what the hardship is

Home is Where Your Heart is.

It's like family, you may not like them and you may want to get rid of them

but no matter what They are Family. 

I felt the impact and I felt the emptiness, sadness and pain that it has caused 

and sadly, more than anything

I feel it now more than ever.

Post Domestic Brexit.

What Do You Do When your Home is being taken away from you?

I have not stop you from moving on. 

You have done it before. We broke up and you still when on different date and saw other people.

So for you to give me an excuse that it is hard for you to move on, is rather unacceptable.

I am not stopping you from doing that and only you are stopping yourself from doing it because you know for certain that I did not do anything wrong. I did not cheat on you.
All I have done is trusted a friend to comfort me because I was upset. 

However, what a fucking arsehole he was to fucking take advantage of me like that. I feel fucking awful about it. I fucking hate him and I fucking want him DEAD! 

So don't let your frustration on me because deep down  you know you feel guilty for not being able to be there for me. I have constantly told you and I made myself the most clearest when I spoke to you on the night you when to the party. How awful I feel and how upset I was and yet again you rejected my emotions. This relationship did not work not because I fucked up as I have not done anything wrong. But because you were not able to see how your actions impact me and now that you do not know how to handle the situation, it is easiest to point the finger at me. As always, because all this time I have yield to cater your insecurities and need.

For once I urge you to please stop pointing finger at the world. Because you are not as golden and kind as you think you are. Put your guard down and please just for once stare at yourself and make peace with your demon because I know the man I marry and his soul is 

far more beautiful than the mask you are wearing.

Please, save that beautiful soul.

I love you, Harry B Wills.

Come Home. 

I am glad my pain and misery enlighten you.

I am glad it amuses you.

I am glad it makes you smile 

that I am in pain 

and you feel that even after being a part, that you 

somehow can still own me.

Now I truly understand what true colour means. 

You have become such a monster.

What gives you the right to own people?

Did you ever love?

Or did you saw an opportunity to own me? 

We will trump over you,

Just like you trump our humanity,

Trump you will be trumped

We will find triumph in a voice

So full of rage, anger and frustration.

The world mourns over your winning, for revenge we will seek.

WALL UP WALL UP WALL UP,

WE ARE FUCKED.

in the echo of the word,

you build a wall over me.

Why do I have to suffer for you,who did not know how to vote?

Why am I being punished for something I did not do?

Why do I have to lose you when I am the one who lost me?

Why is it that it is okay for him to get away with rape 

and I too lose my respect?

Your ego, is beyond understanding.

All I have done was have faith in humanity.

Truth be told, there is no hope.

We are all DOOMED.

it takes two to tango

one to lead one to follow

but it's the rhythm of our bodies 

that makes it a dance.

when all the i love you's and the i do's

becomes an empty promise,

when you can't even smile anymore

because your happiness was someone's smile that is no longer yours.

Goodbye and thank you.

when the hole gets deeper

when there is nothing to say

when there is nothing else to do

even a goodbye will never do.

When you finally speak the words of truth,

The years gone fades away like it was all jut a dream

When your dream becomes your nightmare

you can only crawl to the closest tunnel of light.

London, you are home. My home.

Thank you for allowing me to live and grow.

Thank you for teaching me what freedom taste like.

Thank you for allowing me to be me.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I will miss you.